RIP Oakley's

Damn it!!! I'm convinced I lost my only and favorite sunglasses during the music video production. I don't know how or where... but it's gone. It's not in my car or suitcase. *sigh*

Why can't I hold on to sunglasses for at least a year. I always seem to lose them within a few months. GRRRRR. I wish I took the offer from Anime to buy me these really cool aviators that she liked on me.

I must journey on and never stop believing.

I've recently rediscovered Journey and can't stop listening to them. I even have a channel dedicated to them on my Pandora Account. I learned about them after discovering the amazing story of how they found their new lead singer Arnel Pineda. Google him and find out how amazingly similar it is to the movie "Rockstar."

Anyways, he is an amazing singer, reminiscent of Steve Perry... but not exactly. He has his own style. Journey just comforts me. I remember their songs from my youth and even though they are considered formulaic and Rock-Pop. I've come to realize how much their songs touch me. Like this song, it makes me remember that I shouldn't stop believing. Believing that the future will work itself out and I can do what I set my mind to.

Thanks Journey.

PS: They were even featured on People Magazine.

I need to promote myself to...

I can't believe I am so sore from working yesterday. My knee is really bothering me too.

I will start shooting and producing my own short films... I refuse to be a Production Assistant for the rest of my life. LoL.

Anyways, I made up my mind today that if I am going to do FREE gigs I will only do it as a Producer, Director, DP/Camera Operator, and Assistant Director.... even Assistant Camera. All to build my portfolio.... but I also realize its because I am good at doing these positions. Don't get me wrong, I'm good at being a production assistant(PA's)... but that's only because as a director I know what I want/expect from my own PA's.

I've made up my mind. I'm stepping up my game.

*cue dramatic music*

It's not so easy getting over ....

Do you remember the days you started working on getting over someone. How bout the days you thought you were over someone, but actually still really into them. Then the time came that you stop avoiding the truth and denying that something was not right.

Well, that happened to me recently. I originally thought it was my ex who was in love with me and couldn't let go, but then I recently realized it was I who couldn't let go. How embarassing.

The separation process or the process of not caring SO much is a process I don't expect to come easily, but I realize it's something I have to do for us to remain friends. It's tough when you realize that you have been the villain when you thought you were the hero. That you've been forcing someone to act a certain way, even feel guilty for habits that come natural to them. All to keep the thought that they are who you think they are or wish them to be.

My heart is so heavy and guilty for doing these things to someone I care about so much. Not to mention how surprised I am with my behavior. At least she still cares about me and we don't hate each other. In the future she will discover her true soul and nature. She will "grow up" as we both refer to it... but at least she will be herself. I may find it attractive or not, that's for the future to decide. What I know NOW is that we will always be friends who love each other regardless of what happens.

PA work is hell... be a doctor.

Yesterday I worked on a music video of an upcoming band "S.A." and the band members was wonderful. Yet, I am sore as a Mother F**ker. We started at 6AM and I didn't get out until 11PM. I was the last person on set with exception of two other guys... who were driving the cube trucks we were loading. Other than that, everyone was gone... one other PA even just took off the moment he filled out his time sheet.

We shot in an aircraft carrier the USS Hornet, which is docked in Alameda, CA. Making a music video in a aircraft carrier I learned is hell. PA's do a lot of donkey work, so it's far from glamorous. OMFG. To make matters worse, we had to move equipment through the narrow stairs of the carrier. I think it was doing this that twisted my knee at one point. I had to go most of the day with the pain of a twisted knee. It hurt. But I had to finish the production day. At one point I had a good limp which I tried to hide when people were around. I must have stepped down the ladders wrong while carrying some heavy equipment.

Anyways. I'm healing and I only hope the pain goes away... please no permanent damage. Stay tuned for some cool photos.

Oh ya. I have so much respect for the Cast and Crew of "Top Gun" or any movie made on a Navy Vessel... that has got to a tough production.

Nintendo Fun Club Discovered

I was digging through my storage unit to dispose of things I didn't need anymore and found this little treasure from the past. It's a membership card to the Nintendo Fun Club, which you got by subscribing to "Nintendo Power" magazine. Some of you old school gamers can confirm this or not.

I can't believe I still have this... and to be honest, I'm not quite sure if I should throw it away or not. I'm having nostalgic feelings about it every time I look at it. What do you guys think? Keep it or throw it away? Put it up on ebay? Give it to my Nephew?!?! Please comment. I want to know what you think.

Anyone else have their Nintendo Fun Club card? I think I find this extra cool, because of the resurgence of Nintendo due to the Wii... but this card is the link to my early childhood gaming days. When I played hours playing games like: Contra, Duck Hunt, Rad Racer, Tiger Heli, and Smash TV. The new generation of gamers have no idea about these games... unless it was remade. Just like the movies.

*sigh* I miss those days of video games.

Alaska is next to Russia. OMFG!

So I wanted to write about something else other than politics today, but I had to post this up.

I can't believe this FOX NEWS anchor even picked up the same logic. Did he hear it from Cindy McCain? Did McCain's team put this out as a talking point? Is this guy just as naive as Cindy McCain? Where do these guys get their logic?!?!

I love how the other guys expression in response to the comment. He might as well say, "Shut up you idiot!"

Priceless.