When you're beyond tired.

It's 11:42 PM. I've been awake since 4:45 AM. Been working since 5AM. Ran around Melrose Place. Ran into Joey Pantelleone and Will-I-Am from the "Black Eye Peas" today. Picked up a second shift, where half of my shift is just on call and hopefully sleeping. I passed tired about 4 hours ago, but for some reason... I'm still functioning. I guess I have no life but work at the moment.

Yes, it's sad.

Anyways... I can't imagine how difficult it will be to wake me up tomorrow morning. I'm gonna be in a coma. LoL.

Break it down for me Doc!

I took a personality test today and here is my result. I can't complain about it really. Try it out yourself.

Genuine Inventor

About you:

• You are an Inventor
• Your imagination, self-reliance, openness to new things, and appreciation for utility combine to make you an INVENTOR.
• You have the confidence to make your visions into reality, and you are willing to consider many alternatives to get that done.
• The full spectrum of possibilities in the world intrigues you—you're not limited by pre-conceived notions of how things should be.
• Problem-solving is a specialty of yours, owing to your persistence, curiosity, and understanding of how things work.
• Your vision allows you to identify what's missing from a given situation, and your creativity allows you to fill in the gaps.
• Your awareness of how things function gives you the ability to come up with new uses for common objects.
• It is more interesting for you to pursue excitement than it is to get caught up in a routine.
• Although understanding details is not difficult for you, you specialize in seeing the bigger picture and don't get caught up in specifics.
• You tend to more proactive than reactive—you don't just wait for things to come to you.
• Your independent streak allows you to make decisions efficiently and to trust your instincts
• You're not afraid to let your emotions guide you, and you're generally considerate of others' feelings as well.
• You prefer to have time to plan for things, feeling better with a schedule than with keeping plans up in the air until the last minute.
• Never one to be found in chic boutiques or trendy clothing stores, you take an extremely practical approach to getting dressed.
• You tend to believe that things happen for a reason, and that not everything is under our control.

If you want to be different:

• Try applying your creativity to more artistic arenas, and letting your imagination take less practical forms.

How you relate to others:

• You are Genuine
• Your outgoing personality, your preference for order, and your cautious appreciation of others makes you GENUINE.
• You aren't afraid to occasionally be the center of attention. You are comfortable and confident in social situations.
• As a charismatic kind of person, you tend to be energized by other people and enjoy their company.
• When other people are upset, you are able to think about the situation rationally, without getting too caught up in their feelings.
• At times you find it difficult to understand where other people are coming from, and wish they could just see things the way you do.
• You are a strongly principled person who believes in right and wrong. This helps you make decisions easily when it comes to moral issues – you don't have to waste time hedging on important values.
• In your experience, people tend to get what they deserve. Because of this, you work hard and try to follow your principles in your day-to-day life, knowing that you will be rewarded for your efforts.

If you want to be different:

• You have many friends, but you only trust a few of these people when it really counts. Opening yourself up to more of your friends will help you create more strong and meaningful relationships.
• Be cautious when judging someone—try harder to understand his or her perspective—and you will become a more intuitive person.

Need shirts to wear.

Long hours at work... the other day this week, I worked 15 hours and then had to wake up at 4am the next morning. Ugh!

In the mean time, I'm actually getting overtime. That's a relief.

On my ONE day off during the week, I decided to find these t-shirt designs for the ladies. *LOL*

Below are a few from cafepress.com - Asian Collection.

Cafepress.com - Filipino Collection

Fancy that. It got shot down.

Guess what! My idea of the "3 rule" was totally shot down the other day (Friday). I was waiting for a third bad news and expecting this "break" to not happen. But instead of just sitting and waiting for it to happen. I did something about it and got my job.

Saturday morning, I started working for my first television show as a Production Assistant. Finally, broke in to the industry with an entry level position to gain more experience. Please don't ask me what show I'm working on or what it's about... because I can't tell you. I'll just get tired of denying you and start telling you some bullshit answer to entertain myself and make you look stupid later. My coworkers are great except one guy who heads the lighting department. Two words: Napoleon Complex.

As much as I hate using that word, this guy is just a dick. Whines and bitches about why he's not able to do this or that... as if I have anything to do about it. I just tell him what is told from my chain of command. If he has a problem, bring it up with my boss or the Producer. Don't speak under your breath or out loud to pretend to make me feel guilty... cuz I don't give a shit. Since, I'm following my orders and doing my job.

What I will bring to you are quotes I get from set in film format. Let's begin:

INT. CAR - NIGHT

PA 1 (Short Male, Denim Jeans, and black shirt), PA 2 (Slender Female, perky breasts, tank top, dirty BOX blond hair), Line Producer ( Husky Male, zip up sweater, jeans) walk out of a production house carrying various products in hand.

PA 1
How is that a Viking name?

PA 2
Because they do!

PA 1
The last one you read, maybe! But the names you read before that?
Not Viking. Hamm and anything with a "...ski" on it, is not a viking name.

PA 2
What would it be?

PA 1
Those are Germanic names. From Germany.

PA 2
No they aren't.

PA 1 and Line Producer
What?

PA 2
Those aren't, I swear.

PA 1
Dude! Those names were Germanic... Eastern European in origin.

PA 2
(surprised)
What! Eastern Europe is China and shit. Those aren't Chinese names.

PA 1 and Line Producer look at each other in shock. They both smirk.

PA 1
Are you serious? Really?

PA 2
Yeah.
Line Producer
Uhm. That is Eastern Europe.

PA 1
No its not!

EXT. PRODUCTION HOUSE - NIGHT

The group walk out to the front doorstep of the house.

Line Producer and PA 1
What is Germany and the countries next to it then?
PA 1
Dude! Viking Countries are Norway, Sweden, and Finland. That's North Europe.

PA 2
No it's not. Germany is like Europe... and Viking Countries are the North West Europe.
Oh, I forgot something... I need to run back inside.

Line Producer and PA 1 just look at each other and nod in disbelief.

FADE TO BLACK

FADE IN

INT. CAR - NIGHT

Line Producer is sitting in the driver seat, PA 1 is sitting on passenger seat, and PA 2 is moving around in the back seat trying to get comfortable. PA 2 begins to rummage through the back of the car.

PA 2
Oh my gawd! Is this a China man hat?

Silence lingers in the car for a moment.

Line Producer
Uhm, yeah.

PA 1 begins to laugh sarcastically.

PA 1
I don't think that's called a China man Hat.

Line Producer
It's called a rice field worker hat.

PA 2
No it's not! It's a China man Hat.

PA 1
Uhm, dude! No one uses that word. Do you know the equivalent of that word?

Line Producer
Yeah, that's pretty much an insult and people don't like to hear that word.

PA 2
What?

PA 1
Yeah. That's a derogatory term.

PA 2
Dude. It's not racist. I can't be racist.

PA 1
Why not?
PA 2
Because I'm Hispanic! I'm such a mutt that I can't be racist.

Line Producer and PA 1 look at each other and nod their head in disbelief.

FADE TO BLACK

It's safe to say that we stopped trying to educate her and let her believe that China is Eastern Europe.

Then we were too tired to debate her on how stupid it was to think that just because you are a person of color, you can't be racist. I personally think that is the dumbest shit in the world. To think that a person of color is unable to discriminate another human being due to their color being different from theirs. I've met plenty of Hispanics, Blacks, and Asians who are bigots in their own right.

By definition, she is right I suppose... because by definition. Racist people would have to be in a position of power and use that to influence hold down a group of people. Yet she is still quite the bigot for saying what she said. Since you are reinforcing the use of a racial slur. Justifying to others that it's okay to use a racial slur. Same can be said for using the word n**gger, we**ack, sp**k, ch**k... etc.

Perpetuating racial stereotypes and believing you can't be a bigot due to the shade of your skin is just pure stupidity.

FULL STOP.

"Leave out all the rest" is what I need to do.

So today I got some bad news. Yesterday I got bad news. I'm just waiting for the third bad news, which I expect to arrive later today. *sigh*

You see, I believe in the rule of three... Three really great things happened to me last week (all related to each other) and this week I'm finding out that they will all be taken back... Just waiting for the last and best one of the bunch to be taken.

Oh well, I just found this beautiful Linkin Park Video. It made me feel better and reminded me to just "leave out all the rest" and move on to the next.

Palin Privaledge - Did you know she had one?

The following message was posted on a Bulletin Board. The article talks about the double standards being placed on the Presidential candidates. Especially when it comes to Sarah Palin, the darling of the Republican Party at the moment. A lot of the things mentioned in this article have brought to my attention how Palin's rise would be impossible for most folks.

Tim Wise is quite an interesting man himself. I've never heard of him or his lectures, but I found a lecture/speech on youtube.com and attached it below too. It makes you realize that the media is still playing softball with the candidates(esp. Palin).

After reading the article and the youtube clip. Please comment. I want to know what you think about the presidential race after reading this.

==============================================================

This is Your Nation on White Privilege

By Tim Wise
9/13/08

For those who still can't grasp the concept of white privilege, or who are constantly looking for some easy-to-understand examples of it, perhaps this list will help.

White privilege is when you can get pregnant at seventeen like Bristol Palin and everyone is quick to insist that your life and that of your family is a personal matter, and that no one has a right to judge you or your parents, because "every family has challenges," even as black and Latino families with similar "challenges" are regularly typified as irresponsible, pathological and arbiters of social decay.

White privilege is when you can call yourself a "fuckin' redneck," like Bristol Palin's boyfriend does, and talk about how if anyone messes with you, you'll "kick their fuckin' ass," and talk about how you like to "shoot shit" for fun, and still be viewed as a responsible, all-American boy (and a great son-in-law to be) rather than a thug.

White privilege is when you can attend four different colleges in six years like Sarah Palin did (one of which you basically failed out of, then returned to after making up some coursework at a community college), and no one questions your intelligence or commitment to achievement, whereas a person of color who did this would be viewed as unfit for college, and probably someone who only got in in the first place because of affirmative action.

White privilege is when you can claim that being mayor of a town smaller than most medium-sized colleges, and then Governor of a state with about the same number of people as the lower fifth of the island of Manhattan, makes you ready to potentially be president, and people don't all piss on themselves with laughter, while being a black U.S. Senator, two-term state Senator, and constitutional law scholar, means you're "untested."

White privilege is being able to say that you support the words "under God" in the pledge of allegiance because "if it was good enough for the founding fathers, it's good enough for me," and not be immediately disqualified from holding office--since, after all, the pledge was
written in the late 1800s and the "under God" part wasn't added until the 1950s--while believing that reading accused criminals and terrorists their rights (because, ya know, the Constitution, which you used to teach at a prestigious law school requires it), is a dangerous and silly idea only supported by mushy liberals.

White privilege is being able to be a gun enthusiast and not make people immediately scared of you. White privilege is being able to have a husband who was a member of an extremist political party that wants your state to secede from the Union, and whose motto was "Alaska first," and no one questions your patriotism or that of your family, while if you're black and your spouse merely fails to come to a 9/11 memorial so she can be home with her kids on the first day of school, people immediately think she's being disrespectful.

White privilege is being able to make fun of community organizers and the work they do--like, among other things, fight for the right of women to vote, or for civil rights, or the 8-hour workday, or an end to child labor--and people think you're being pithy and tough, but if you merely question the experience of a small town mayor and 18-month governor with no foreign policy expertise beyond a class she took in college--you' re somehow being mean, or even sexist.

White privilege is being able to convince white women who don't even agree with you on any substantive issue to vote for you and your running mate anyway, because all of a sudden your presence on the ticket has inspired confidence in these same white women, and made them
give your party a "second look."

White privilege is being able to fire people who didn't support your political campaigns and not be accused of abusing your power or being a typical politician who engages in favoritism, while being black and merely knowing some folks from the old-line political machines in Chicago means you must be corrupt.

White privilege is being able to attend churches over the years whose pastors say that people who voted for John Kerry or merely criticize George W. Bush are going to hell, and that the U.S. is an explicitly Christian nation and the job of Christians is to bring Christian theological principles into government, and who bring in speakers who say the conflict in the Middle East is God's punishment on Jews for rejecting Jesus, and everyone can still think you're just a good church-going Christian, but if you're black and friends with a black pastor who has noted (as have Colin Powell and the U.S. Department of Defense) that terrorist attacks are often the result of U.S. foreign policy and who talks about the history of racism and its effect on black people, you're an extremist who probably hates America. White privilege is not knowing what the Bush Doctrine is when asked by a reporter, and then people get angry at the reporter for asking you such a "trick question," while being black and merely refusing to give one-word answers to the queries of Bill O'Reilly means you're dodging the question, or trying to seem overly intellectual and nuanced.

White privilege is being able to claim your experience as a POW has anything at all to do with your fitness for president, while being black and experiencing racism is, as Sarah Palin has referred to it a "light" burden.

And finally, white privilege is the only thing that could possibly allow someone to become president when he has voted with George W. Bush 90 percent of the time, even as unemployment is skyrocketing, people are losing their homes, inflation is rising, and the U.S. is increasingly isolated from world opinion, just because white voters aren't sure about that whole "change" thing. Ya know, it's just too vague and ill-defined, unlike, say, four more years of the same, which is very concrete and certain.

White privilege is, in short, the problem.

Tim Wise is the author of White Like Me (Soft Skull, 2005, revised 2008), and of Speaking Treason Fluently, publishing this month, also by Soft Skull.

What's wrong with Goths today?!?!

OMFG! This is really disturbing that these people actually believe in this stuff.

Teens eaten by satanists

By LYNSEY HAYWOOD

Published: 15 Sep 2008

A VILE gang of devil worshippers has killed and eaten four Russian teenagers in a sickening ritual.

The Satanists stabbed each of their victims a terrifying 666 times before dismembering their bodies and cooking them on a bonfire.

Russian cops discovered the teenager's limbs, hearts and scalps in a pit in the Yaroslavl region around 300 miles from Moscow, along with the dead body of a small rodent crucified on an upside-down cross.

The victims, three girls and one boy, all aged 16 and 17, disappeared from their homes in June.

But police only discovered the remains of Anya Gorokhova, Olga Pukhova, Varya Kuzmina and Andrei Sorokin last month.

The four pals – described as "Goths" – were lured one by one to a country cottage and were allegedly forced to get drunk before the revolting ritual began.

Hair from the victims was apparently found in the embers of the bonfire.

Cops arrested eight Satan worshippers in connection with the killings after finding out that all four victims had telephoned Nikolai Ogolobyak, the alleged leader of the Satan gang. His apartment lies just 250 metres from where their remains were discovered.

One of the arrested Satanists said: "Satan will help me to avoid responsibility, I made lots of sacrifices to him."

Gravediggers

Another suspect – Alexander Voronovic – said the gang had previously dug up a dead girl's grave and eaten her heart and a third suspect said he turned to Satan because praying to God did not make him rich.

He said: "I tried to turn to God, but it didn't bring me any money. I prayed to Satan, and things improved."

"Did he ever bother to consider it was because he felt more confident after praying to 'Satan' that things started improving for him. All due to the human psyche rather than some spiritual hand."

Teachers of the alleged Satanists said all had been moody at school and of lower than average intelligence.

"Go figure!"

Ogolobyak had previously been in his local church choir, according to his grandmother. All the dead knew Ogolobyak and other members of the Satanist gang.

The distraught father of victim Andrei Sorokin said: "My son said he knew some Goths, and that he had Goths and Satanists among his friends.

"I wasn't scared. I thought 'Well, let him spend his time sitting around in a cemetery, there's not much harm in that is there?'"

I guess those kids proved him wrong.

Love to the living

Yesterday I spoke to a woman very close to my heart and listened to her story about fighting with her family for petty and insignificant things. She couldn't understand why they got on her nerves so much.

It took me a while to process what or why her "blow up" disturbed me. Especially when I wasn't as upset as I thought I would be when she told me that her sister shouted, "You don't have to be a bitch because your friend died."

Oh, let me explain that last party. You see, she had a close friend of hers from high school died recently in an automobile accident a few days before his 22nd Birthday. A total shock and surprise to the community, family, and friends. After hearing of the news, my friend became melancholy and very emotional. Crying, holding herself insider her room, not eating, and lamenting how she wished for him to return and dedicating songs to him on her facebook and blog.

So now that you're caught up on the situation, let me continue.

She told me that it has been around two years since she last saw or heard from this fellow, until this past summer where she was supposed to meet up with him to catch up... but sadly, they never got the chance to meet-up. Partly due to her having to leave early to see her ex-boyfriend "Panda" in Los Angeles.

Now her continuous lamenting and sad demeanor had me thinking. Why is she so sad about someone she hadn't spoken to in a couple of years. Was she feeling guilty for not meeting up with him? Does she blame herself and her ex for leaving her hometown so soon for L.A.? Then I realized that maybe women just process grief differently from men. Maybe women are just more emotional about things.

Yet, when she told me about what happened to her and her family. Especially what the younger sister said to her... it hit a nerve in me. I could swear there was a message in there. I had to sleep on it to figure it out, but I realized what it was this morning.

I realized her sister had a point.

My friend had gone into such a funk after the accident that probably neglected the interaction with her family. In any case it got me thinking, when people die and people mourn we have the tendency to focus on the dead and how we may have failed them. How we never got a chance to say goodbye or how much we love them. Then people get very introspective and guilt ridden, forcing them to fall into a sadness of thinking how life will be like with out that person in this world.

I know, because I've gone through the same scenario with my death and loved one's death. Call me cold and callus, but I just can't imagine crying for a person I didn't really communicate with for the last several years. Not only that, but I believe if we placed as much effort on the living then we wouldn't have to feel so guilty about the dead.

What I'm basically saying is that we should all pay attention to our loved ones while they are alive. So we don't have to cry and feel so much guilt when they die. Because I believe death is their way of ascending to heaven and a chance to celebrate their life, rather than mourn their death. Although this would be especially difficult for people who are victims of a violent crime and/or accident. Yet we need to focus on the gift of life.

Focus on the love who are still with you on this world. They are the ones we need to show and share the love with everyday... I just hope my friend gets past the mourning stage for her friend and refocus that energy to her loved ones sharing this life with her.

My condolences. We (and I) love you too.

Dirty Tricks!

Faux Pollsters target Jewish population of Florida.

This is just disturbing and disgusting. That some people will tarnish the name of math and statistics to gain political advantage.

Using lies, hate, and discrimination these people try to target Jewish voters and insult their intelligence by pretending to be a statistician (with no bias), only to implant seeds of doubt and discord in their minds... trying to link Obama to Terrorist Groups.

Disturbing sight of the day.

I was reading KCAL9 website for the news. They had a photos section of the LA Erotica convention that just passed. Why not? It had photos of lovely women in skin tight and close to nothing outfits... right?!?! What harm could it do.

Until I saw this and nearly lost my breakfast... that is, if I had eaten breakfast.

Grandma, please retire. I don't want the
kids to keep teasing me at school.

Housewife vs Palin, while Republicans wish they were on TV.

A letter from a Wasilla, Alaska housewife regarding Sarah Palin:
Here is a letter from a housewife who has faced Palin when she was in City Council. She fought Palin in 1996 when Palin tried to remove a City Librarian from her job because the Librarian refused to remove certain books from circulation that Palin wanted removed. If you want to read the whole article click the link above (WARNING: It's long, but worth reading.)

Below are some of the bullet points that she provided. Giving the reader an idea on Gov. Palin's history of policy. [Spelling and grammar are all based on original text]

CLAIM VS FACT

• "Hockey mom": true for a few years
• "PTA mom": true years ago when her first-born was in elementary school, not since
• "NRA supporter": absolutely true
• social conservative: mixed. Opposes gay marriage, BUT vetoed a bill that would have denied benefits to employees in same-sex relationships (said she did this because it was unconsitutional).
• pro-creationism: mixed. Supports it, BUT did nothing as Governor to promote it.
• "Pro-life": mixed. Knowingly gave birth to a Down’s syndrome baby BUT declined to call a special legislative session on some pro-life legislation
• "Experienced": Some high schools have more students than Wasilla has residents. Many cities have more residents than the state of Alaska. No legislative experience other than City Council. Little hands-on supervisory or managerial experience; needed help of a city administrator to run town of about 5,000.
• political maverick: not at all gutsy: absolutely!
• open & transparent: ??? Good at keeping secrets. Not good at explaining actions.
  
• Has a developed philosophy of public policy: no
  
• "a Greenie": no. Turned Wasilla into a wasteland of big box stores and disconnected parking lots.
  
• Is pro-drilling off-shore and in ANWR.
• fiscal conservative: not by my definition!
• pro-infrastructure: No. Promoted a sports complex and park in a city without a sewage treatment plant or storm drainage system.
  
• Built streets to early 20th century standards.
• pro-tax relief: Lowered taxes for businesses, increased tax burden on residents
• pro-small government: No. Oversaw greatest expansion of city government in Wasilla’s history.
• pro-labor/pro-union. No. Just because her husband works union doesn’t make her pro-labor. I have seen nothing to support any claim that she is pro-labor/pro-union.

If you want to read who this author is, CLICK HERE!

VS.

Walter Reed High School vs. Walter Reed Army Hospital. Why doesn't the RNC organize their slideshow photos before posting them up on a giant green screen? How unprofessional is this event?

The moron who arranges John McCain's slide show during his speech does not know how to use google, nor double check their work. How can they not realize that the slide they chose was Walter Reed High School, not Walter Reed Army Hospital.

Has anyone in his staff served in the military? Visited the injured soldiers in Walter Reed Memorial Hospital during his campaign? If so, why didn't any of them remember what it looked like and avoid this mistake. Maybe they just wanted to imitate a TV show (according to TPM) called WEST WING, where a presidential candidate announced his desire to run for president. Pay attention to the building behind this clip and maybe you can recognize it from the picture.



L.A. Times
Talking Points Memo (TPM)

THE PLOT THICKENS:

Now that the story is picking up steam in the blogsphere. The McCain camp sent out a statement claiming it was not a mistake. According to "The Caucus: A New York Times" Political Blog, the McCain camp made this statement:

Not so, according to campaign spokesman Tucker Bounds, who said the campaign intended to showcase “images of Americana” during the Arizona senator’s remarks.

“The changing image-screen was linked to the American thematics of the speech and the public school was simply part of it,” Mr. Bounds said, adding that during the speech, Mr. McCain “called for public education reforms that empower parents and students before bureaucrats and labor unions.”

Yet, the school did not give them permission... nor was the school asked permission to be used by the political party. Then, why did no other slides appear after the school image went away? The high school has actually set up a website to notify the public/parents that the school does not endorse a political campaign. I think they really did make a mistake... they just can't admit their failure... just like in their politics/policies.

Go figure.

White Elephant Garage Sale

Today I decided to attend a friend's garage sale, which is called the "Annual White Elephant."

Why it's called "White Elephant?" I don't know, but it must be a euphemism for "silent auction."

Because that's exactly what it is.

People basically bring things they want to get rid of and combine it with other people's junk. Then they walk around, look at other people's junk and write down their bid for anything they are interested in. Some bids start at $1, while others at $5. Yet in the end, there were tons of free stuff that people took home that belonged to someone else.

So no one really got rid of anything from their home... they only changed the item that occupies that space in their garage.

Picks from the WHITE ELEPHANT event:
1) Straw Fedora.
2) Chinese landscape painting.
3) Chinese calligraphy: "Nobel man, must act in a Nobel way."

[Please correct if I'm wrong and post a proper translation.]

Like the Phoneix...

My OAKLEY's sunglasses has returned... more like found in my expansive backpack. I guess I didn't search it as well as I thought I did. I'm just glad that I can drive down to LA with it and not worry about being blinded by the sun.

On a separate note. I was watching an entertainment show and saw a celebrity wearing the same sunglasses... go figure! I didn't think I was trendy, but now that a celeb is wearing it... I must be tready. =P LoL.

Top Gun Music Video.... really!

Production Photos from the latest Saving Abel music video I worked on this week. After shooting on the USS Hornet, I'm glad I didn't join the Navy. I chose to be Army Strong. Hooah!

Set P.A.'s manning the smoke machine and fan.

D.P. and A.C. trying not to run into anything as

they walk backwards down the hall.

I just though this composition looked cool.

San Francisco skyline from the deck of an Aircraft Carrier.
Impressive.

Oh, BTW. This is how the smoke machines helped the scene.

Photo courtesy of:
http://www.myspace.com/savingabel

I'll post up the music video once it is completed. K? Later!

Farewell London... for now.

I submitted a film to the BFI London Film Festival and have been holding my breath for the results since that time. I was contacted by Sarah Lutton (Programme Manager) informing me that our feature documentary was not selected for this years festival. I'm personally sad, since I was really hoping to get a World Premiere in London.

Although it's a bit of a downer... my group and I realized it was a long shot. But hey, why not swing for the fences and try. Right?!?! Anyways, I'm glad we tried. We have several more festivals to wait for before the years end. Wish me/us luck! Thanks!


ON A SEPERATE NOTE:

As I wrote the entry above I was watching the news too. VP Nominee Palin was introducing Presidential Nominee McCain at some small town (which seems to be the routine after the party convention).

As I was listening to her speak, she caught my attention because she started stuttering and fumbling her words. That's when I realized that she was reading a script prepared by some speech writer and like a reporter reading a teleprompter, she read the lines word for word until she stumbled on a word either misspelled or had incorrect grammar. Either way it killed her beat and made me giggle... because I realized what if she was pranked to read a teleprompter with all the wrong things to say. LoL.

RIP Oakley's

Damn it!!! I'm convinced I lost my only and favorite sunglasses during the music video production. I don't know how or where... but it's gone. It's not in my car or suitcase. *sigh*

Why can't I hold on to sunglasses for at least a year. I always seem to lose them within a few months. GRRRRR. I wish I took the offer from Anime to buy me these really cool aviators that she liked on me.

I must journey on and never stop believing.

I've recently rediscovered Journey and can't stop listening to them. I even have a channel dedicated to them on my Pandora Account. I learned about them after discovering the amazing story of how they found their new lead singer Arnel Pineda. Google him and find out how amazingly similar it is to the movie "Rockstar."

Anyways, he is an amazing singer, reminiscent of Steve Perry... but not exactly. He has his own style. Journey just comforts me. I remember their songs from my youth and even though they are considered formulaic and Rock-Pop. I've come to realize how much their songs touch me. Like this song, it makes me remember that I shouldn't stop believing. Believing that the future will work itself out and I can do what I set my mind to.

Thanks Journey.

PS: They were even featured on People Magazine.

I need to promote myself to...

I can't believe I am so sore from working yesterday. My knee is really bothering me too.

I will start shooting and producing my own short films... I refuse to be a Production Assistant for the rest of my life. LoL.

Anyways, I made up my mind today that if I am going to do FREE gigs I will only do it as a Producer, Director, DP/Camera Operator, and Assistant Director.... even Assistant Camera. All to build my portfolio.... but I also realize its because I am good at doing these positions. Don't get me wrong, I'm good at being a production assistant(PA's)... but that's only because as a director I know what I want/expect from my own PA's.

I've made up my mind. I'm stepping up my game.

*cue dramatic music*

It's not so easy getting over ....

Do you remember the days you started working on getting over someone. How bout the days you thought you were over someone, but actually still really into them. Then the time came that you stop avoiding the truth and denying that something was not right.

Well, that happened to me recently. I originally thought it was my ex who was in love with me and couldn't let go, but then I recently realized it was I who couldn't let go. How embarassing.

The separation process or the process of not caring SO much is a process I don't expect to come easily, but I realize it's something I have to do for us to remain friends. It's tough when you realize that you have been the villain when you thought you were the hero. That you've been forcing someone to act a certain way, even feel guilty for habits that come natural to them. All to keep the thought that they are who you think they are or wish them to be.

My heart is so heavy and guilty for doing these things to someone I care about so much. Not to mention how surprised I am with my behavior. At least she still cares about me and we don't hate each other. In the future she will discover her true soul and nature. She will "grow up" as we both refer to it... but at least she will be herself. I may find it attractive or not, that's for the future to decide. What I know NOW is that we will always be friends who love each other regardless of what happens.

PA work is hell... be a doctor.

Yesterday I worked on a music video of an upcoming band "S.A." and the band members was wonderful. Yet, I am sore as a Mother F**ker. We started at 6AM and I didn't get out until 11PM. I was the last person on set with exception of two other guys... who were driving the cube trucks we were loading. Other than that, everyone was gone... one other PA even just took off the moment he filled out his time sheet.

We shot in an aircraft carrier the USS Hornet, which is docked in Alameda, CA. Making a music video in a aircraft carrier I learned is hell. PA's do a lot of donkey work, so it's far from glamorous. OMFG. To make matters worse, we had to move equipment through the narrow stairs of the carrier. I think it was doing this that twisted my knee at one point. I had to go most of the day with the pain of a twisted knee. It hurt. But I had to finish the production day. At one point I had a good limp which I tried to hide when people were around. I must have stepped down the ladders wrong while carrying some heavy equipment.

Anyways. I'm healing and I only hope the pain goes away... please no permanent damage. Stay tuned for some cool photos.

Oh ya. I have so much respect for the Cast and Crew of "Top Gun" or any movie made on a Navy Vessel... that has got to a tough production.

Nintendo Fun Club Discovered

I was digging through my storage unit to dispose of things I didn't need anymore and found this little treasure from the past. It's a membership card to the Nintendo Fun Club, which you got by subscribing to "Nintendo Power" magazine. Some of you old school gamers can confirm this or not.

I can't believe I still have this... and to be honest, I'm not quite sure if I should throw it away or not. I'm having nostalgic feelings about it every time I look at it. What do you guys think? Keep it or throw it away? Put it up on ebay? Give it to my Nephew?!?! Please comment. I want to know what you think.

Anyone else have their Nintendo Fun Club card? I think I find this extra cool, because of the resurgence of Nintendo due to the Wii... but this card is the link to my early childhood gaming days. When I played hours playing games like: Contra, Duck Hunt, Rad Racer, Tiger Heli, and Smash TV. The new generation of gamers have no idea about these games... unless it was remade. Just like the movies.

*sigh* I miss those days of video games.

Alaska is next to Russia. OMFG!

So I wanted to write about something else other than politics today, but I had to post this up.

I can't believe this FOX NEWS anchor even picked up the same logic. Did he hear it from Cindy McCain? Did McCain's team put this out as a talking point? Is this guy just as naive as Cindy McCain? Where do these guys get their logic?!?!

I love how the other guys expression in response to the comment. He might as well say, "Shut up you idiot!"

Priceless.